Decent week. I'll think I'll pare down on some of these goals for the time being until I can think of other and how to best maange my time. Got to find ways to put at least a little bit of time into stuff so it'll eventualy snowball in terms of progress and accomplishment.

1. Career: Applied to be in a program at work and attended a meeting about information about another program. Also checked out grad school. I think I'll have to bite the bullet and eventual go to grad school.
2. Writing: Wrote a little bit more on a novela, but I'm stuck. I should circle back, write a synopsis and general plot outline. Keeping the stuff in me head and not on paper doesn't work out. I also think I should exercise in some way before writing because trying to write while just sitting in a chair like a bump on a log is not inspiring. I also need to listen to records and not to Youtube, because YouTube distracts me way way too much. Going to be raiding a notebook I have with stuff written in it to start up more writing projects. Getting it off the notebook and/or out of my head and onto the computer will make my brainspace so much neater.
3. Reading: About two thrids of the way through No Country For Old Men by Cormac McCarthy. Excellent so far. I love the scenario the protagonist falls into and how the antagonist hunts him down, more so out of principal than desire for money or murder. Plus llewelyn Moss might have the most Welsh name in all of American fiction.
4. Art: Nothing on the animation front, but made an MS Paint doodle of a pirate flag. People seemed to really like that one as it's easily the most reviews a piece of mine has even gotten. Maybe there's a pirate trend going on I'm not privy to?

Also tried to setup FightCade. I think I did get it but I think I'll need to do more testing on it. I'm woefully inept when it comes to computers and dowloading stuff like that, despite the videos I've looked at. My ineptitude causes intimidation, but I think I might have it down pat. I just wanted to go online to play Third Strike and Marvel 2. I'll get shalcked, but losing can be fun, too. See you all next week.

I know Febuary is the shortes month of the year, but to me it feels like it drags on forever. Plus, we had Leap Day which prolonged it by a whole nother day. March is finally here! I'm looking forward to leaving Febuary and Winter in the rearview and moving toward Spring, March Madness, and baseball.

I can't believe I did nothing to commerate 02/24/2024, the 42nd Annual Chris Chan Love Day. I'm such a naive slow-in-the-mind for missing it. In honor of this True and Honest occasion, I'll link a few of my favorite Chris Chan videos:

Chris' message to Ivy (warning: extreme cringe)

Rollin' and Trollin' (I can't express how badly I wish this video was real)

I'm workin' on it! (Everything about this video is comedy gold)

Electric Hedgehog Power (Chris Chan goes into supermode)

The story of Chris Chan is a story I discovered in 2017 and I've been following it ever since. Even with the mountains upon mountains of evidence verifying the veracity of it all, I still have trouble at times wrapping my head around how all this stuff can be real. But you have to take a deep breathe and accept it, because it is real. As always, go out and zap to the extreme!

Going to make this informal. I applied for another job and I did finish reading Lord of The Rings. But that's it. I didn't work on writing or animation or nothing. I want to do these things, but being at the begining intimidates me and I push it off. The lack of progress is frustrating, but the intimidation of starting remains. Just bums me out. I'm not going to delve further at risk of this becoming a diary entry, but does anybody have any takes on starting a project and maintain concentration on that project because I'm at a loss? Any former procrastinators want to chime in and give some advice to a current procrastinator?

Some progress, but not a lot.

1.Primary

a. Writing: Nothing. I got off track with the sickness I had about the week before this most recent one, and I didn't do a thing. I think I just need to outline more stuff and work on multiple things at once. Something about the prospect about focusing one on thing is very daunting and kinda dull.

b. Career: I applied to 3 more jobs. I reviewed this applications with me superior at work, and was informed those jobs had too high a rank for me to qualify. I'll pay more attention to that in the future.

c. Health & Exercise: Same with writing. Gotta get back into that.

d. Animation: Not a darn thing. I have to stop focusing on one thing and jump around

2.Secondary

a. Building: I finished me set of Beaver Stadium last Sunday. It's pretty cool.

b. Reading: Read through more of Lord of The Rings. (Spoilers) I got to the end of the Battle of Pelennor Fields. It's so amazing. The destruction and how dire Gondor's situation is is gripping. Denethor's detoriarating mental state and his suicide via fire is disturbing in an interesting way. If you aren't hyped when Eowyn kills the Witch King, I don't know what to say to you. (End of Spoiler) I also read more of this book about unleashing your inner artist. It mentioned how to produce anything and to get inspired, you need to constantly show up to create. I feel very necessarily called out.

c. Programming: Nada

d. Music: Nada

3.Tertiary

a. Videogames: Nada

b. YouTube Watch Later: Nada

c. TV: Nada

d. Music: Nada

4.Miscellanous: Nada

Piss poor week in a lotta respects. I need to re-establish routines and create some new ones. Something about focusing one on thing feels intimidating to me. I think it's because I feel it will take forever and then I have to do something else that would take forever. I should start dabbling in multiple stuff here and there. Get at least a little progress on stuff down so I can eventually get snowballing on multiple things. That should work more. My mind is so unfocused that I should just lean into how it actually works instead of trying to reign it in to focus on one thing at a time. Until next week.

Going to make this one quick and informal. I've been sick all week so that's sapped a lot of my motivation and I've taken medicine that is quickly putting me to sleep. I want to post something before I'm too tired.

1. Career: Applied to 3 jobs, and got denied by 1. Bummer because of the 3, that was the one that interested me the most. Just gotta keep applying
2. Writing: Did some character outlines for a novella I want to write.
3. Execerise: Stopped doing the curls across my body and starting lifting them behind my head in a way that exercise my triceps. I like that much better.
4. Building: I started work on the Beaver Stadium set I have. Got about halfway through it. Should be done tomorrow.

That's everything for this week. Being sick just sucked all the wind out of my sails, but heres to healthy week next week.

I made some progress I'm proud of.

1.Primary

a. Writing: I acutally did some wiritng! Today I finished a draft of a short story I started on Tuesday. The draft is rougher than sandpaper, but the feeling of working towards something and making progress is so good. This feels like the a small sustained burn, rather than an intese flame that petters out after not too long. I'll probably work on other drafts for short stories before returning to brush up this one, but it feels great to actually write and finish something. Writing is want I eventually want to make a career. I know it's a totally unrealistic pipe dream, but life's boring when you aren't shooting for the moon.

b. Career: Didn't do a thing. I need to more poracitvely monitor the job postings at work

c. Health & Exercise: I bumped up the 50 regular bicep curls and 50 curls across my bodies up from 1 set to 2. My arms aren't pythons, but it's great to feel muscle straining a little and have blood bumping. I might change up the curls across my body. Not super fussed about them.

d. Animation: Nothing. Got to get proactive and not just wish I could do this. Art is something I realize I need to get wamr and stay warm.

2.Secondary

a. Building: I got to change this because I haven't done any building

b. Reading: More Lord of The Rings (Spoiler) Got from where Frodo, Sam, and Gollum travel through Ithielien to where Pippen swears himself to Denethor. I love some much the back half of Two Towers with the Frodo and Sam stuff. Sam putting the hurt on Shelob is so awesome. You've probably heard Sam is the real hero of the story, and it's hard to disagree with that sentiment. Tolkien's writing and world is just so engrossing and rich. (End of Spoilers)

c. Programming: Nothing. Got to get warm on that.

d. Music: Didn't learn anything about music. Need to get warm on that.

3.Tertiary

a. Videogames: Nothing really. Didn't even install Fightcade

b. YouTube Watch Later: Nothing

c. TV: Nothing. I just spend so much time on YouTube, I question if I ever really want to sit down and watch throw a tv series.

d. Music: Listened to a few different albums. Listening to records really keeps me focused when weriting

4.Miscellanous

TBD

Honeslty not a ton of progress, but I'm really proud about finising the rough draft. Listening to albums worked wonders for my focus on motivation. Listening while writing is going to be staple from here on. See you next week.

These two questions have been on my mind for a while now. They are "Why must I feel like that?" and "Why must I chase the cat?" Can I get some help in finding the answers? Thank you.

I have The Working Hour by Tears for Fears stuck in my head, and it gets to be stuck in yours. It's not that bad, because this song is phenominal

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YOY_aqkUTxY